Gearheads of War

First of all I would like to thank you all for your thoughts. And when I say all, I mean ALL. Good and the bad. I understand there would be some animosity towards my actions. I dont expect everyone to understand why I did what I did. To be honest, I am not quite sure how I did what I did. I have been recently diagnosed as Bipolar. Apparently I have a chemical imbalance that can sometimes take place at times of high stress. I am in the early stages of the diagnoses right now so I dont know where this is all going. I have pleaded guilty and will know in about a month or more what to expect for a sentence. I am pretty sure it will be between 1 and 3 years. Possibly less. I am attending Gamblers Anonymous due to a huge gambling problem and it is working thank God. I havent had an urge to gamble ever since I have started to attend meetings. My addiction started with small 2-10 limit hold em games and progressed upwards of 100-300 games. So that coupled with severe financial troubles fuels a fire I wish upon no one. My wife suffered a stroke when she was 20. A $200,000.00 dollar doctor bill isnt an easy fix. Nor is a $40,000.00 high risk pregnancy. With all of these things and more there is simply no excuse for these actions. I am not looking for sympathy and am trying to find honesty. I have done quite a bit of soul searching throughout this whole thing and have been trying to find good in this. I am starting to see that things happen for a reason and this is no exception. My wife was finally able to get her RN degree with being home with our daughter. This will enable her to provide for her while I am gone. We plan to stay together through this ordeal and I believe her. She has never given me a reason not to. She and my daughter will stay with my parents while I am away. This will enable her to save a lot of money. So as I said things happen for a reason. I will let everyone know what the sentence is when I find out. Until then take care of the ones you love and let them know it every chance you get.

One thing to Degree of Freedom or what ever your name was. I understand your comment you made in the previous thread. But please understand I am not looking for your sympathy, nor your support. I am searching myself for honesty and guilt. Telling the truth and knowing I was wrong for scaring two innocent people regardless of weather I was unarmed or not is something I need to repent for. But it is something myself and God will deal with. Not you. I dont expect anyone on this site who has never gamed with me to even come close to feel bad for me and thats not what I want. So know that I thank you for your comment but it holds no wieght with me. I am done with negativity and am trying to repent and find positives to feed off of through these hard times.

Thank you all,
Jake "Thumb"

Keep running a great site Papi and kiss you little girl tonight and tell her you love her.